Tonight, I find myself longing to write and express myself but I can’t get out what I want to say.
Sometimes when I overthink, I say nothing.
All that I just tried to write seemed like uninspired nothing and so it has been deleted.
And yet, I know still there is something…
I have stopped to pray and to think of what it might be.
What I am recalling is the fact that this morning I woke with a song running through my head. What I don’t remember at this point, is what that song was!
This happens to me once in awhile and I firmly believe it is God’s way of speaking love to me as I sleep, of bathing me in music and love, and pouring good words into my morning. Apparently, by evening, I forget – but its still a good way to wake up!
I remember that there was a song because I remember that, upon waking, I suddenly realized that it was July and therefore had been a month, thirty days, since I felt – heard – God calling me to write again:
“Write now, right now”
Over the last couple of days I have received the sweetest messages of encouragement from strangers and from people I cherish and love. Those messages have brought me to my knees, and to tears, in thankfulness for Gods perfect plans and timing.
It is a beautiful, incredible moment indeed when you realize that if you finally just leap to answer the call of God – you will no longer care what might qualify or disqualify you.
To be assured that when you begin to walk in the simple obedience of “He called/I answered” you will no longer wonder if something might be too difficult or if you will have the correct level of strength to match the task ahead.
It is an insanely awesome thing to wake up one morning, and know that you just spent a month doing “project management” with God.
And it is just totally rad* (*sometimes I run out of adjectives, sorry) to care only if He is pleased with you, and to feel humbled by somehow knowing that He is probably nodding and saying “Yup, that’s what I asked you to do and that’s how we are going to do this ‘new’ thing in your life..”
So anyway, I have nothing much to say except that.
Oh! And this…
If God is calling you to..
-to continue the hard job
-to the battlefield
-to the small but difficult
-or to the simple with overwhelming qualifiers
-or any and everything in between
..don’t doubt, just do.
And honestly? All of the things you think you can’t do? God can.
So with God, in God, led by God? You will be part of an unstoppable team.
Oh! And the song (which I remembered while typing) “From The Inside Out” by Hillsong United. Some of the lyrics, I actually woke up hearing?
“The art of losing myself in bringing You praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
My heart and my soul
I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out”
Trusting Fully In His Strength and Authentically Yours,
“The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17